Beth lost her whole life. She lost her father when she was young, and lost her belonging because of her biological mother's suicide. Later, a ruthless disease took away her redemption, her adoptive mother. However, losing everything is not only pitiful, but also terrifying. As the Russian champion said, the background of growing up alone has become the driving force behind Beth, pushing her to keep fighting, just to gain a sense of control from it.
And then compensate for the emptiness of the soul caused by repeated loss. QG_101_STILL_02_00118295RC Photo photo background removing Credit: Netflix However, what Beth needs is not the sense of control, but the sense of security brought by control, after all, that is the legend she has never experienced since she was a child. Therefore, Beth is fascinated by the thrill of victory, which is like a painkiller, allowing her to temporarily forget the restlessness and swaying in her heart, stand firm and live, and get rid of her weak and helpless self. In this regard, in the eyes of outsiders, especially those rivals, Beth is like a monster that eats everything, a bottomless pit that will not be satisfied no matter what. After all, Beth's endless hunger comes from long-term dissatisfaction.
However, the bottomless pit is not really a black hole, it just hasn't been put into the right food to satisfy her. Therefore, although Beth was able to capture the victory, in exchange for respect, surprise, anger and fear, she never had the love and belonging she wanted. Therefore, even if victory is a painkiller, it is only a temporary anesthetic, not an antidote to fill the void. As long as there is no more victory, Beth will fall into the abyss of loss again, buried alive and submerged by anxiety. Therefore, Beth is like the faceless man in "The Hidden Girl", who can only watch the crowd come and go by the bridge, but it is difficult to integrate into anyone's side, even if she spends more gold (victory and